Nacoca Ko

Distorted I.D.

Natalie <nacoca@yahoo.com>

The issue of identity keeps coming up - like everytime I have to present myself on Instagram, it’s self-propaganda and I’m forced to limit myself into a tiny box, each box says something about who you are but it is read through so much irrelevant context. and the meaning, if there was one, is distorted. We seem to have no problem with squeezing ourselves into these tiny spaces- anyhow we voluntarily become ones and zeros masticated by machines, how much smaller can you be?

And some people represent themselves with pictures of pets and fish tacos, or selfies or selfies with scenic backgrounds, or pictures of their art.

And I know I have a hard time with identity because I don’t want to see myself the way people see me. That I’m weird or I’m not weird enough or I’m an established lady or a childish free spirit... I want a fluid entity of all that I am, constantly in flux, unattached to definitions, filling all roles that inspire me and bring meaning and light... And maybe that’s why facial recognition is even more fascinating and unnerving to me, all the big brother impending doom, the unknown, the public, the government, trying to trace my face into an algorithm without me even having an opportunity to add a filter or a context, just automatically place me into a category...

how could it know about me when I barely understand myself?

And what is it but another phrenology another false superseded science? Profile your “personality” and cut you up into pieces so you feel you are only a sum of your parts- you are an honest citizen with nothing to hide, you are the person that must like tacky colorful socks and fancy vacations.

Could I subvert the recognition, could I distort my face or distort my identity enough to be unidentifiable - that no person nor machine could label and box and consume me?

Nacoca Ko <nacoca23@gmail.com>

only kids have avatars, only predators hide their faces

Nacoca Ko <nacoca23@gmail.com>

i don’t want to post my illness on your entertainment app